Welcome aboard the guilt trip express. Today's trip was paid for by your mother. Go figure...

She went snooping, and found my webcam today. So she grilled me on that. "What do you DO with a webcam? What do you need it for?" Well Mom, my friends are not exactly nearby, and offering them the chance to see my face, if only for a little while, was well worth the $20 I spent on my little cam. First, she complained that I was wasting my money on that, when I had more important things to buy, like a car. She didn't believe it only cost twenty dollars. Second, she thought the worst about what the webcam was for. She probably thinks webcam = porn sites. Whatever Mom.

Then she went into the old standby topic: The Car. She wants me to give my best friend an ultimatum. She wants me to be able to fly up to New York, and drive it back down with my dad, if Andy decides to give the car back. And that is supposed to be coming up in two weeks. She doesn't want me to drive down all by myself. And I don't think it has anything to do with her worrying about me being alone out on the road. I've done that plenty of times before (granted, not at the distances). I think she doesn't trust me. And the whole thing is, whatever happens with THAT car, I still have to worry about ANOTHER car that's still in my name. My ex-girlfriend Crystal, who is supposed to be getting it out of my name when her tax money comes in. But she also has to move out of her parents' house with that money. And she also has other bills to pay with that money. The support I send her should help some, but I can only do so much. So that's strike two for the night. Mom said I was too good a friend, and then started crying and telling me not to be mad at her for saying those things. I just don't know any more... :(

I think there's a little virus running rampant thru this system. I have been systematically shut out of website after website. First I couldn't log onto MSN thru my mom's account (to use MSN Explorer). Then I couldn't get into my cell phone's online service. Then I couldn't get into PayPal. And now, I can't even check my email. And I have over 30 right now, sitting there. Oh well, I guess I'll just chalk that up to another of my many fuckups. Because if there is something in here, it was from me. Because Mom doesn't really use the computer. GRRRRRR.

So what shall I do? I'm really not too sure any more. But I do know that it's past my bed time, and so I shall have to be leaving now. I will continue my ranting and raving tomorrow, I promise. But until then, I bid you all adieu.

"Screw the Government!"
Anthony Hopkins as Colonel Ludlow in Legends of the Fall